03/10/2014

Pregnancy an Unexpected Surprise | My Story



Exactly three months ago today I found out I was pregnant. I had been suffering from a nagging back ache for days - something resembling the worst period pain I’d ever experienced. It had been so long since I’d experienced such pains as my choice of contraception had ensured my monthlies gladly hadn’t made an appearance for almost three years.

After a long sleepless night I took myself off to the doctors. After explaining my symptoms - which included some nausea and complete aversion to certain smells - the GP offered to do a pregnancy test.

I popped to the loo and peed into a tin foil cup without a single care in the world. There was no chance I could be pregnant and although I love children I had taken - in my opinion - sure precautions to avoid any little accidents. I was in a long term relationship so the decision to take necessary precautions was down to me. We decided we wouldn't use condoms as the contraceptive injection was 99% effective.

As I stepped back into the room the GP’s face said it all. She didn’t even need to say the words. Although I’m sure she did but the room seemed silent. I had lost the ability to hear. My mind went blank. Everything stopped.

I seemed to glide to the car park and for three hours I sat there motionless. Without a single thought.

I knew in my heart going home would mean the end of my relationship.

When I arrived back to the house, I wandering through to the kitchen, lost until my partner came in form the garden and asked if everything was okay.

The moment the words fell from my lips my eyes welled up, my words lost between a chasm of uncertainty.

He didn’t say anything for what felt like minutes. Until, “Well we need to get this sorted. Who do we call?”

My heart broke instantly and I knew his decision was final. As was mine.

For the days that followed I made it clear that my decision was final and I would not be pressured by him or his family to do something I would regret for the rest of my life.

Three months on and I’m already the size of a house. Finally enjoying every part of pregnancy, alone!

My partner made it clear the day I left our home (after being asked to leave) that he didn’t want any involvement with the pregnancy or any part of the baby’s life. So here I am today sat in my own little cottage telling any single pregnant ladies out there that it’s okay. Don’t feel alone because soon your life will be filled with an irreplaceable love and a little bundle of joy.

My advice now would be to build a strong support network. Rope in family and friends to support you through the tough times ahead. I’ve already made arrangements for my birth and I’m already making arrangements for when the baby arrives. For the first time in my life, I’m prepared.

Laurie Rose

5 comments:

  1. Wow, thanks for sharing your story. Crazy! Very similar to a close friend of mine and her first little girl. Father had no interest in being a part of the child's life. You sound strong and positive! Congrats, and here's hoping for a happy, healthy pregnancy.

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  2. Firstly congratulations! And well done for going it alone. I imagine you will be a fantastic mother and father to your baby!
    xx

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  3. Congratulations princess. You're never going to wake up and regret that baby, but he's gonna wake up and regret not being there. You're gonna be an amazing mama xxxxxxxx

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  4. Good for you Laurie. I totally don't understand how someone could react in that way- but hey, it really is his loss. I hope the rest of your pregancy goes well and you don;t have any bother from them. xx

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  5. Congratulations! You're about to have some of the most amazing experiences, being a mum is the best thing I have ever been lucky enough to do! You have an excellent attitude, and getting things sorted now is very wise. I was so unorganised during my pregnancy, I left everything until the last minute and some things didn't even get done until after I brought my baby home. I had an emergency c-sec 5 weeks early, and that week in hospital I was kicking myself for not being better organised! Good luck with everything!

    Lauren / And Together We

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