07/12/2013

A story of a constant struggle...





After years of struggling with my weight, whether it be due to my obsession with comfort eating or certain medication I decided it was time for a change. I hadn't weighed myself for at least eight months, but I knew my body was changing - again. I made a decision to join Weight Watchers, it was the only way I would make a change.

When I stepped on the scales at my first meeting I was horrified to see I had put on almost two stone since April. I had mixed emotions, the first was 'how am I going to lose all this weight' I wanted a quick fix. In the past I have tried all sorts of diets, you name it I've done it. Cabbages Soup, Atkins, Fasting, Slimming World, Slim Fast, Apple Diet, Herbal Pills, Weight Loss Patches the list is endless. The only one that had ever been successful was Weight Watchers, I'd lost two stone back in 2006 in preparation for dance college. Yes, believe it or not I used to be a healthy size 10/12 and I was fit, I could do a two hour ballet class no problem. But then I found alcohol and developed an obsession with food, but not in a good way. I would secretly eat, I could easily polish off a packet of biscuits in minutes and afterwards I would feel disgusting. But this was my own way of coping with my emotions. Just like anorexia or bulimia, over-eating is a kind of eating disorder. Stuffing yourself until you physically can't eat anymore is a personal, private thing- something you wouldn't dare discuss with anyone. I would cry myself to sleep, but felt there was nothing I could do.

The realisation came when someone commented and said 'Oh when are you due?' I was mortified, that's when the change came. I've been following Weight Watchers now for almost four weeks and so far so good. I feel so much better in myself. My skin is better, my energy levels are up and I really don't miss anything at the moment. It doesn't feel like a diet because you're constantly full up. It's great!

So for a while I'm taking some time out from outfit posts as I'm really not comfortable in anything right now. Everything I put on makes me feel even bigger. I'm settling for a lot of big, black outfits.

I want to start another blog to document my progress, but I'm scared of the criticism I will get.

If anyone else out there is going through the same thing please get in touch, I would love to hear from you guys, I love to chat.

Hopefully hear from you very soon,

Laurie Rose.

10 comments:

  1. I'd love to read your progress, I tried slimming world for a little bit but got into the habit of secret eating again, it's a really unhealthy cycle. I'd be happy to chat...charlotte@stwcreation.com x x

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  2. I have been struggling with secret eating for a couple of years too...I'm slowly getting better, but sometimes I still do it and then feel terrible about myself. I would love to read about your progress, as long as you feel comfortable sharing it, I think it would be very helpful for anyone who's in a similar situation

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  3. You're not alone, sweet girl! I worked hard before my wedding and toned but, but never really lost weight. (I've always struggled with my weight) But the second I stopped working out, I'm softer and heavier. It's so difficult to get motivated... but my clothes are really starting to look bad on me. I'd love to see your progress. Do post!

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  4. aw gosh girlie!it is a really scary thought to publish things on the net..but i would hope people would be supportive and would be like hey omg I've been struggling with the same thing rather than criticise you...if they did then they are horrific human beings!so i really hope people wouldn't do that!keep up the good work with your blog lovely!:)x

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  5. You're not alone: before I found out about my gluten intolerance, I was so unhappy with my weight. Fortunately after I changed my diet, my boyd started working and I lost the excess, but it is hard to admit that you want to change. You go girl, everyone will support you and cheer you on! All the best xx
    Coquetin

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  6. I too have let myself go a bit over the last few months. Time to get back on track!

    xoxo
    Kelly
    www.dreaminlace.com

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  7. Just know that those who come to your space on the internet to criticise you because of your journey are terrible & bored people with nothing better to do. Good luck on your weight loss journey, and just remember, you CAN do it!

    Lauren
    http://tasteslikelove.blogspot.com

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  8. I'd love to read it. I was doing well over the summer with getting exercise and trying to lose weight. Then the clocks changed and I didn't want to cycle down dodgy paths in the dark so the exercise quietened down. Now I'm thinking it's time to hit the gym or WW, can't decide which but I'm tired of looking in the mirror and disliking what I see. I'd love to do outfit posts but I'm too embarrassed.
    Let's support each other :) xx

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  9. You are so not alone I have been struggling with my weight for a while and I am starting to do something about it! And if you want to document your progress I think that you should do it! (: great post!

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  10. What an inspiring post, thanks for sharing! I came across your blog and love your style, so now following on Bloglovin & GFC. It would be great to follow each other's style journey!

    UK Fashion Blog | www.lurchhoundloves.com

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